Pre-Finish

        So here I am, 6 days before my last written exam. How do I feel at the end of this long period (12 years of school), I would ask myself? The answer is simple. Disgusted. Tired. But, at the same time, free.

       Then again, I ask myself, how come everyone has this big smile on their faces when finishing school? Maybe, they all got drunk or high before - or maybe, they are all ignorants who think that once taken this step, they are ready to finally face life and enjoy. Wrong, I tell thee.

        Pleasure and joy shouldn't come once you finished school. School should be more enjoyable, not a dark place of torture you are afraid to go to, afraid that anytime you can get punished for not giving the right answer, punished for not thinking alike teachers. Especially in our country, school is based to much on brainwashing. Pupils are taught not what they like to be taught, but what they have to be taught. Not that I'm saying that there ought not to be a basic knowledge everyone should have, but humans are so diverse, especially in their early years. By diverse not only do I mean character and behaviour, but strenghts and talents in different areas. Some may be gifted with a theoretical mind, some with an analytic mind, some may have tendencies towards music or arts.

         But no, nobody gives a shit about that. The concept of individuality does not exist in school nowadays. Everyone is taught as if they would all be the same. It's like placing AI into the heads of robots.

        So, I ask myself again and again, what is the purpose? Do they want to build an army of freshly graduated students who all should serve their purpose? If yes, which is their purpose? I feel as if nobody wants to stimulate potential talented children, who, if given the right teaching can reach way more, especially in the area they are interested in. I guess, however, that the this role is taken by universities.

        Nevertheless, my point is that what we need in todays society is creativity, the one thing that brings us further. Creative thinking should be, if not an actual class, taught in every class itself. Each and every subject can be approached from different points of view, and each and every one of us approaches different subjects from different points of view. A single approach given by profs leads to narrow minded thinking. That's why young people nowadays, when faced with uncommon problems or ones that haven't been treated before, have big issues finding solutions to these. They will approach these in the single manner they were taught and fail.

         One of these "single manners" is the search for the one right answer. There isn't something like the right answer (not that I'm saying that 2+2 can equal other than 4) and there is always a second right answer, an answer that can be found maybe in other domains. A second right answer provides a wider view to look at things, and thus finding a better or even more solutions.

*off topic* Finally I got the chance to write in my "blaag" again. Thing is, I didn't really have things to write about. I've been overflooded with this negative feeling, this repulsion and it is this feeling that blocked me, thinking or even treating other subjects than school. A lot of work put into school for nothing. I actually consider myself pretty lucky for getting the chance to experience more than this country, this culture, this school and it is my merit that I've become how I've become. However, I would wish that more people would escape from this labyrinth they have been locked into, with no escape other than doing and acting how you are told. The future, my friends, does not lie in this country. It lies far far away from here, somewhere where you feel comfortable with yourself, where you can be yourself and do the things you wish to.

Will you choose freedom over a place in the Asylum for the Deaf? I, for one, will shure do.

Hasta la vista,
Tim-O